hmm

we're just finishing watching Children of Men. I'm not really sure what I think yet. I'm not sure what they wanted me to think. I'm not sure. If any of you know how I'm supposed to feel about this movie I'd like to know. I could think people are rotten. I sometimes do think that. Especially when I encounter large scale group-think. I don't like environments where there is no thoughtful dissent. I don't like people killing each other senselessly. at the same time deciding what makes for sensible killing each other i don't know.. i'm not sure there is any sensible killing... since you all know how i feel about state sponsored killing, i guess that rules out any wars, executions, and assassinations as sensible...

i like the metaphor of human behavior on the Earth as the behavior as a disease or parasite on the body of the Earth. It's just too complete and good. i have to go watch something else now or else i'll have nightmares.

I did laundry

not much. and that's not a big deal, but what's cool is i managed not to make a gigantic mess while Cat was out this weekend. Normally i make sprawling messes... but i managed to plop myself in front of my computer playing awesome vidya games and discovering how rad MS office 2007 is... i really want outlook though. the home edition idon't think has it.. but i can't remember anyway. point.. i didn't make messes. and i did a load of laundry.. which i should check on. and maybe tomorrow after easter stuff i'll fix that front yard tree mess. but i'm not making any promises. i also got more propane. we ran out.. i'm impressed by how long it lasted considering how often we were cooking out there. and having 5 burners really sucks it up.. but it's oh so delicious. i have a turkey in the freezer i'd like to grill... maybe i'll do it next weekernd. that n is in there on purpose. i'm going to the train station now. i'm excited about it.

hmm

I tried to make Cat a video of me playing the cello for her to watch and not miss me. because i figure she's about as missing me as i am her. i tried and tried and the thing wasn't working.. so i made and ate a burrito and settled for taking a picture of me eating it. i'll put it here for you all. we'll see how i do from now on. plorp.

it's getting late..

but i'll post something anyway. i've been having a very long-feeling week... but very few actual days have passed by. i suppose that implies to pessimists that each day is unpleasant. .but i wouldn't say so in this case.. only one day was unpleasant.. and it wasn't the day, it was the night. i had weird weird dreams and felt completely unrested in the morning. so that was no good. other than that things are more or less ok. but i am not looking forward to Cat going to portland. being apart from each other is not something we care for.. i myself have never lived alone. i don't believe either of us have, but i don't know for sure. anyway, once we met each other we didn't like being apart much at all, and we haven't ever really gotten tired of one another. needless to say... wait.. isn't it funny that the phrase 'needless to say' even exists? if something was actually needless to say you wouldn't follow it with anything, then your sentence would go nowhere. i wonder if there's a really really dry paradox comic out there who has that as a joke. they just say casually into the microphone: "needless to say." and that's the end of it. and one nerd in the audience gets it, and snorts. and maybe one loud guy in the back laughs because he laughs at everything.

i got way off topic, and i can't remember how to get back. i'll go to sleep then.

goodnight.