so late

i should be asleep. i'm putting off going to sleep because i'm nervous about presenting tomorrow. they gave me a much bigger piece of the training to present than usual, a very important piece, and naturally, i'm freaking out a little bit. it's not so much that i'm worried i won't do it right, actually i think i'll do it fine, it seems just like my mental stress reaction goes overboard and i panic about virtually everything all at once. this makes it hard to sleep, and does me absolutely no good whatsoever. anyway.. eventually i get tired enough to just go to sleep. interestingly, there's a Chinese herbal formula for it that i find to be effective beyond anything else (i've never tried any of the anxiolytic drugs though, as i heard they're habit forming and don't actually help the problem) and i don't have two of the three ingredients on hand, so i can't make some. i should buy them, but it takes too long and costs money that i don't have yet. so i will just wait. i tried some ear acupuncture which worked really well actually... but not like the formula. anyway. goodnight peeps. i gon' go sleep now.