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i'm le tired. well, actually i'm not that tired. i'm overloaded with work today. and it's making me not want to deal with anything at all... i'm really glad i have a week of vacation coming up. so i can be an arrogant know it all at work. we call it KIA whenever i show off how much i know about something. I felt lucky at the time that they pointed out how irritating it was, but today i got a taste firsthand of just how bad it can be to be in the room with someone doing that.... (by the way, it wasn't me this time, ever since i was told i am far more aware and careful about it so i hope i'm not perceived as the know-it-all jerk i could be)... anyway.. where was i going with that? i think it was that later that day i was talking to a colleague about it and why i was feeling too much responsibility/accountability for this endeavor i'm in the middle of and we realized that i like the control and responsibility but this project is just too big for me to account for everything and orchestrate the group to get to the end result we have to get... i need more than 2 days to do it right, and i only have 1... it's frustrating, and i'm not going to feel satisfied by whatever i do end up producing because i know the whole job isn't done... anyway. no good.
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I realized reading this that I have absolutely no clue what it is that you actually do at your job! Sounds like you're in charge of some big stuff. I remember those days of feeling like the expectations out-weighed the time at hand. Well, I still feel that way but with a lot less critical things at stake....laundry and organizing are a lot easier to deal with than sick animals, surgery and angry clients!
Hang in there and try to evaluate whether or not you are putting greater expectations on yourself than what really is there from your superiors. That's Brad's issue sometimes, being a bit too much O (in OCD) and expecting too much from himself, when everyone around him thinks he's doing a great job. He hears a missing bassline but no one else does, yet he can beat himself up about it. =)
Great to party with you guys, hope you enjoyed your day and we can't wait to see you guys again really soon!
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