piss and vinegar

i was just reading about anselm's ontological argument for the existence of god. It's really pissing me off. first of all, i'd like to discourage anyone from using the term 'perfect power' to mean unlimited power. perfect means complete. you couldn't do anything to it. it's finished. done. unlimited implies there will never be an end, the thing will never be complete. never be over. so.. these are not the same. absolute power, perhaps. assuming that no challenge to that power could ever arise that the power could not overcome... but those problems come up all the time: "Yo God, make a boulder so heavy even YOU can't lift it."

here i'll explain the argument. basically: god has to exist because we can conceive of it. pardon? that a thing exists in your understanding as well as in reality nothing greater than which can be imagined. that this thing must be better in reality than in your conception thereof, and that therefore, the greater of the two, is the one that actually exists, and must actually exist.

at the time Gaunilo disagreed. he said then because he could conceive of a most perfect island, then an even more perfect island must then exist. it undoubtedly does not. waterslides, log-rides, a pit toilet with Jorge B in it. i wish. but no. then imagine you could ask everyone to imagine a perfect god/island. every island must be different, and so must every god. which is imperfect for each one. except in the mind of that one person who created it.

anyway. this person said gaunilo's argument was absurd, but that anselm's was not.. the only reason i can conjure up to explain that is that the writer did not need a proof of god to begin with. the very nature of faith prevents a person from seeking proof of god. in fact, their faith is of questionable quality if they cannot believe without proof. proof is something the seeker never finds but in their own mind, be it in the realm of the spirit, or that of science, or whatever else. too many imponderables to ever get proof beyond all doubt (well, actually, doubt is made by us.. and we can fail to provide enough doubt to properly suspect the proof of something). anyway. fools, all of us. anyway. arguments to prove the existence of god are always put forth by people seeking to convince the unbelievers, unbelievers will always find these proofs to be garbage. such as i find this proof. i find this sort of exercise to be a complete waste of someone's brain that could have otherwise been used on something useful. just serves to piss me off, and add another half-assed ammunition to the guns of christian soldiers. i'm done stinking for now.

eugh

Friday afternoon, i was not feeling very good. i had some symphonic bowels.. loudly so, like Marche Slave finale loud.. with some cannon shots from time to time.. i can't say exactly where it came from, but i had the feeling if i didn't behave it would get worse. i had social obligations of course, so i could not behave. in fact i tried hard within that framework to behave and preemtively herbify myself, but to no avail. adding insult to injury, there was a potato in my pot pie at dinner. anyway. i tried to ahve a good time anyway, but around 8 am the next morning i was a mess. i decided to drive home and recover as much as i could before coming back down for day two of the social obligations. of course i just got worse. so bad that i was throwing up by mid-afternoon. i called my mom for some help.. but she was in seattle, still, she offered to pick up Cat so i wouldnt' have to. that was very cool. Cat got a ride home with Juan, and another big Thank you to Juan, then Cat brought me some nourishing foods, and i started on the road to recovery. well, today i am much better. i still tread gingerly with the food.. keeping in mind i wanted to be extra careful, but i figure 24 hours is a pretty quick stomach thing.. so i done good. and there's still one more day of my weekend.. ugh.. i just lost a three day weekend.. boo. ok. enough complaining.

updates

LOOK! malison is meddlesome! This is what cat did with the morning. i came home early from work because my stomach was displeased and she was working on this.. it was good i came home, she almost put an unflattering picture of me in the corner. rather than this one of tiny me picking my once tiny nostril.. where did those nostrils go?... they've grown says i. anyhoo. i assume i'll have big news about some stuff next week. but i can't tell it yet.. so stay tuned. oh, and also good, i was told by the compliance and ethics department that i'm A-ok to contract w/ insurance so long as i do not process my own claims. so that commences as soon as possible. good news all around. good evening. oh, and Thank you Cat!

wryohfsl

yesterday was Le Chat's birthday. it was cool. but for some reason we have been staying up late. i don't care for it in the mornings.. such as now. i would much rather be asleep before ten... because getting up at 5 is bad enough.. the sun is up. maybe that's what keeps us up at night.. the sun still being up. meh. anyway. i should eat..

hoopah..

so i haven't posted in a bit.. several things are coming up.. my dad's birthday is tomorrow, and then Cat's.. that's tuesday. she has to work.. boo. and so do i. then this weekend is something.. some wedding business, and after that is memorial day.. then when i get back to work there's the new system.. which is cool. and then after that is a couple uneventful weeks of june.. which will probably have events. of some kind.. and then that wedding.. oh yeah, and juan's play we're going to see.. probably next weekend. but i don't know when. because friday and saturday are something.. hmm. then vacation in oregon.. then my birthday and father's day. then the week after i'll have my birthday thing.. plosph. then july fourth both cat and i have three days.. woo.. maybe to portland. woop.

hoopdo

i'm not having the best day.. but it's been ok. like regular kind of ok. i keep worrying that my car might not be so happy to be driven all over the place.. it makes noises sometimes, and it seems pretty good otherwise, but i wish i had le radio. i think i will save up a little money to get one installed.. because my car is pretty rad to drive.. it being a manual transmission and all.. i think i will never get an automatic for myself.. because they're just not as connected to you as the manuals are.. you know.. like there's a certain amount of unconscious driving with them, but there's also more sensing you do with the clutch and accelerator.. and it's more to do.. keeps your mind on the road a bit better. i think... who knows.. maybe it takes up valuable brain processing space that you could be using to drive more safely. but i can't answer that. it has too many imponderables. by that i mean variables. which is i assume what jeeves meant when he said it about wooster's poor plan. i'll go now. i think i'll go to bed a little early tonight.

friday

i'm posting from M&Ds house. i came over to feed the cats this morning. it's very calm over here.. and my stomach stopped hurting from last night's curry extravaganza.. i made it a little too spicy.. hmm. anyway.. as i opened te door here to feed the cats i nearly tripped on something, it was one of the cats, running outside in front of my foot. crazy cat.. mcnibbs is a crazyass anyway. and stinko is sitting between me and the gigantic monitor to get some attention, however, teh monitor is so big i can still see anything i need. i'm very ecited because i get to eat at musashis tonight. they have cheap sushi, deliciously cheap. it's actually more delicious than it is cheap.. and i should hope they raised the prices a touch since i was there last, almost 2 years ago?... no 1.5 much better.. ok. i have to go back home now and get lunch and take cat to work. then i have to sit at work.. and do something, but i don't know what. that'll be fun. i guess i don't know about the results of that interview till tuesday. so i won't say anymore till then. hooah.

something

yesterday i had that interview, it was cool. then i came home and slept. which was nice. i have a pretty busy week.. lame i think, because the springtime is always really busy, but i'd prefer to just relax and enjoy it. maybe that's the point of retirement, or perhaps once i get there i'll go to great lengths to keep busy all the time. i doubt it. but i have no idea. anyway. i gotta go to work.

5 days

it has been five long days since i posted last. i guess that would be last thursday. i suppose i could look down and see..no. i can't. so i'll just guess. i read something funny yesterday, it made me happy. on the chinese herbal list i read there is a guy who thinks he's the shit. everyone who was educated in chinese medicine after he was is poorly educated. this isfunny because he's a teacher. he's saying his standards presented in his school are too low, and who is in the position to raise that bar? him. anyway. he misspoke the other day and said "would just assume" rather than "would just as soon" and someone called him on it. then they proceded to spend pages of space ranting about how people not understanding what they read or hear, then passing it on is to blame for most of the anger and bitterness over the differences when (in this case) laws are proposed. this had to do with laws using words about scope of practice and diagnosis in California. so i don't care. but i found that idea true. people who talk about the news, orabout the government who add their interperetation or perhaps even don't have the whole picture because they don't want to and then just start bitching.. like i do..sometimes.. well, i like to think i'm not completely misunderstanding.. but tha'ts why blogs are not a place to seek enlightenment or news or explanations of things.. let's hope no one does.. those aren't proper sentences but i have to go to work. i have an interview today.

it's may now

does anyone else find fried chicken to be addictive or exciting? we got some tonight for dinner and hwen i was eating it i was like some kind of starving dog. just tearing at it and ripping bits off and not even chewing.. it was pretty weird.. i mean i know sometimes i eat like a starving dog anyway.. but usually that's because i'm genuinely hungry.. so meh.. i don't know. tomorrow is cinco de mayo.. hot damn. we're having el potluck tomorrow at work. i'm excited for the platter from azteca. ooh yeah.. since i started there a year and a half ago or so we have had 2 such platters. or three if i'm blending two memories together. i could use some ice cream now. but we have none.. and i'd probably wake up groggy if i ate some.. what else is there to say. probably something, but i'm going to sleep because it's late. and i'm gonna stay long tomorrow at work. hoohah. gurplg.