badump

i wouldn't say i had a very good day today. there were good parts.. but overall i'm left with a dissatisfied feeling. I had to present three modules of material to our consultant in front of a portion of the rest of the class. i felt confident up until the moment i started talking and it occurred to me that, yes, i know all of this backwards and forwards, and no, i should still be reading it off the prepared talking points. seriously... i tried to just get through the stuff, and i do know it all, but the circuitous route i took to explain it just doesn't work for a room full of people who heard all the main points 7 times in turn for the past 6 hours. so even though i passed... i don't feel satisfied with the perception of my understanding of the material. if the consultant had, for instance, engaged me in a detailed conversation about applying the stuff i would have been more comfortable with it. anyway.. i just complain. also, my car battery seems to have expired.. it was corroded with reddish/pink stuff.. not rust.. no good. so it impedes my freedom considerably. ok. anyway. there's some updates. i haven't filled in any gaps from last week.. maybe later. but goodnight anyway.