and now for something completely different

i don't know if this really is completely different, but i wanted to write something else. after all of those shenanigans. .. anyway. i'm just noticing that my cohort are rapidly becoming adults. for the most part. within the past year or two things have changed. the dynamics have completely changed in my peers. it's very odd. many are buying homes, many have had the same job for several years now. some are embarking on their real goals, rather than dalying around with nonsense, some are having children, some have toned down their partying, some have started paying attention to their health, some have started paying attention to their fiscal responsibilities. some are forming real intellectual and political and emotional identities. it's all very strange, i suppose all these things could have been happening for the last 10 years, but i just noticed because i arrived here too, in fact that's all very possible.

i noticed the other night at my sister's party i noticed how young everyone seemed.. but not as young as i remember feeling wheni was their age.. but i felt old with them. i'm not old. but i'm not that young anymore.. i have to think about bills and health and saving and maintenance and all that boring stuff that people think about when they're adults. i can't just buy myself toys wheni get unexpected surpluses, i have 50 million things i forgot to budget for, like a new dishwasher or a new refridgerator. anyway. gonna go to sleep.. early. because i have to get up .. early, and go to work.. early. then i'll come home and think about how i don't get paid till friday. blump.