interesting thing

i learned today of a website which lists the causes of large amounts of casualties throughout history, and the thing that stood out to me was the prominence of 'voluntary' losses of life in the upper reaches of the list. for instance: the battle of somme in world war one had over a million casualties. and generally you find natural disasters fairly low on the list. my point would be this: people really do the job effectively. that is to say that mostly we destroy each other for whatever stupid reason, money, religion, machismo.. whatever; more than we are destroyed by natural processes. obviously, if the million people at that battle who died were never involved in any war at all they would of course have died of something else.. i don't know what. but we all die. now it seems that there are some really grotesque ways to die. i guess being turned inside out by the bad kind of aliens is one of those.. so we all die. that's fine. we can live a life free of fear of being murdered by other people.. maybe in absence of that fear we could make some of those other things that cause us to die go away too, like a bunch of those diseases. ... accidents and natural disasters will always be a problem.. and alien mutilations. well, untill the mutilating aliens figure out what there is to know about our bits.. then they'll quit it.. and the less evolved aliens will probably attempt to enslave us, but we could possibly get saved by the enlightened aliens and then we can get a little better. with not being enslaved.. does anyone out there ever wonder if there are aliens out there who can motor around in space but have the mentality of 19th century (western civilization) earthlings? do you? i worry that there are.. and they are a terrible scourge on the rest of the universe.. worse yet, what if they're 20th century earthings? (i won't assume this 21st century is going to be rich in atrocities as it is so far, i think it can only get better... i hope..) .. .... so right.. next time someone wants to make war on humans let them remember the alien mutilations... and then take a good long look in the mirror. and then aliens should come and mutilate them before they can convince other stupid humans to do their evil bidding.

happy xmas

i like to call it xmas. makes me feel like it really is more of a secular holiday, which i'd prefer it be. especially since jebus wasn't born on december 25, and my sources say most likely it wasn't even in the winter, but the early xtians wanted to keep their winter soltice-time holiday spirit and just pretended it was also jebus's birthday. and holidays are really their own reason after all.. what you do for the holiday is the reason for it. whether you crawl under a rock or into a cave and do whatever cave-dwellers do, or you hang out with extended or immediate family.. friends.. etc. or you binge and purge.. or get loaded at a work party and make an ass of yourself.. then purge. it's doing those things that matter. i mean really, i enjoy t-giving, but if i think about what the american colonists did to native americans it makes me so mad.. those colonists were ugly ugly bastards and should have been cursed forever for their wicked ways (perhaps the results of that curse are all around me now.. in those idiot people i complain about all the time.. ) but i digress. i mean to say that the holiday itself is a time we go have big food with family. and what do i like more than eating big food with family? taking four days off from work in a row! what's a bigger winner than that? NOTHING... so there you have it. my xmas diatribe. and thank you for reading it.

HAH!

This is remarkable. perfect. someone from belgium searched google for the word 'forsurance' and found my site. ok, so it has come to my attention that a company is named 'Forsurance' and they sell small business insurance, butmy word is far more useful. so if they were looking for that company, they had nine links to follow before mine came up. but they came to mine. so i'm happy. my word will gain stature. you mark my words, Rob.. you mark them. it will be word of the day. . .. perhaps not. i guess that's up to you, and you could just make it word of the day regardless. plop.

xmas

it's xmas time. that woudl be why my posting is irregular, and spotty. is sparse the antonym of dense? so i baked 15 sticks of boterletter today. i don't actually know how to spell that, because i learned to say it and i've never read it. they're very tasty. i'll take one to work on wednesday, maybe two. so i have more stuff. but i can't remember. so it would be wise of me to go to sleep now. woop.

lucas apologists

i told my friend i'd write a post about this. we have all bitched and bitched about how crappy the new star wars movies are. episodes one, two, and three are particularly self-indulgent.. even by lucas' standards. but the revisions of the original movies in all our eyes go too far. other people have talked about this. all the starwars fans can now be classified into two groups: jaded and bitter sentimentalists and lucas apologists. clearly, i am a jaded and bitter sentimentalist.

so i saw the first ones before they were remastered. obviously.. not in the theaters, perhaps not as obviously, but i wasn't born until 1979.. and i was rather offended by aliens in any form (for more on my alien issues, consult me directly, or encourage me to supply an additional post), so i didn't see star wars until i was about 13 (though i did see return of the jedi when i was like 7 or 8). anyway. that was before they remastered them and rereleased them in the late 90's.. so anyway. we dug it. my whole social group.

so the lucas apologists. i've been called all sorts of apologists in my days. china apologist, clinton apologist, even a nixon apologist (i think i like to defend any unpopular thing in this country..), and so forth. never been called a bush apologist. and i should imagine that will not come to pass. so here's this about lucas. there are these people who will defend anything he does, any change he makes to the old star wars movies. so they not only agree with these changes, they actively defend them, they think they're better than the original stories. this i cannot understand. here's my question: are these people just so obsessed with lucas and his exalted ego, that they cannot actually see the betrayal? or are they just waiting blindly for him to feed them more crap that for them to parrot when people talk about star wars ? hmm?? i dont' know.

something. or other.

it's been far too long since my last post. something like 4 days. that's an abomination. ABOMINATION!.. i love that word. i would also like to use the word 'milquetoast'.. however i have no justification for it, or relevant context in which to use it. so i will pass. perhaps it can be tuhmerruh's word of the day....(that word was 'tomorrow'). i was very very pleased to read about noam chomsky today. everyone should read wikipedia every day, and learn everything they can in 15 minutes. it's a good ritual. you'll know something about everything. in a few weeks. can you imagine? or do you already? regardless. i'll move on. today i moved my clinic stuff into my clinic room. now the china room in our house is all but empty. just some wall stuff and a bookcase full of my books, and then there's several offensive piles of dubiously clean laundry... i say dubious because they have been through the wash, but now theyreside on the floor of a room where the cats play with cat toys. and although i don't consider the cats to be that dirty, their toys are...

i'm trying to make an effort to not be mad today. so we'll see how that goes. i expect it will be fine and good. i'm almost done and i haven't started any mad rants about politics or social injustices or things or people who just plain enrage me.. so perhaps i'm just too tired after a very long and exciting day to bother. i think that's the deal. so i'll finish this up and go to sleep.

woohoo. i made it.

haraldara

so hmm. what's to write about. i don't think there is anything. but i'll write anyway. because i want the quality of this blog to suffer. i think tomorrow i'm gonna drop off all my stuff at the clinic. i realize they're not open then, but i have to just do it. and i'll send out my email. start making le appointments. i think it will be good. i just need to go there. i think it's mostly that it's really hard to go there after work when i'm just through all the traffic. it's the less crappy part of the drive so i can get home. so yeah. anyway. i'm gonna go now. i wanna read a boook. goodnight.

something for reading

i think i should write something here. i was reading my website's stats and was disturbed to find most of the search terms used to access my site involved boobahs. it got me thinking. but not about that. and i won't be telling you what i did think about. xmas is coming. i wish i could have a school-type xmas break. why does being in school have to rule way more than being in the working world. why? Why? WHY? i don't like how severely nice it is to have like 2 weeks off in the most dismal part of the year. not that i don't like late december and early january, on the contrary, it's among my most favorite parts of the year. i also like from the middle of may until the beginning of july.. and that part of march where it starts to smell good outside, and that part of september where it still smells good outside..

i wonder how long until i'll get a nice vacation built up.. and can take it.. because i want that.. i'll make a good relaxing weekend out of this next one. it's gonna be my mom's birthday.. so that'll be nice. i wish i weren't so done with politics. i could write a bunch of hot-headed rhetoric or something to satisfy people, then people would read this crappy brogg. but no.. i am so disillusioned that for now i am healthier not thinking about how wrong the people who run this country are. so stupid. and i'm not going accept that excuse that they have more information on the topic than i do. they don't. and they still are motivated by greed and evil. no one who says they speak from a moral high ground is a good person. they're judgmental (and usually highly ironic, in that they have sinned in all the ways they seek to condemn others for) and short-sighted. and i want nothing more to do with it. i would be pleased if all these people were so disgraced and so ashamed that they moved away, and plagued some other place..

and because cat just mentioned this to me, i wanted to say that being anti-this war, and anti-GW doesn't make people anti-military in general. i want to get to sleep, but i have to say that people who are duped by GW's politicking are most unfortunate. and one of these days they'll wake up. and hate him. just like what happened to nixon. someone will find some horrible crime he's committed (and youknow he has. something way worse than clinton's business) and they might defend him for a bit, but the tides will turn and his cronies will turn on him.. wouldn't it be brilliant if he was taken to the hague to stand trial for atrocities of war? yes. it would. but would that happen? probably no. there was this movie we watched this weekend. the hebrew hammer. itwas ok. but not that great. but ok. but on the special features was a funny thing: a crank yankers sketch about a middle-eastern man calling to order a GW head pinata with a bunch of red candy in it. here's my question. is an effigy constituting a threat? would violating a likeness of a public figure in a way like that warrant investigation by the secret service? because word on the street is they take pictures with scribbles on it seriously. many claim to beleive that this extra scrutiny and harassment is making them safer, but it isn't. they will give up freedom after freedom until there are none. i think that would be funny. giving up freedom for the sake of freedom. hmm?? doesn't that sound stupid? not until you put it that way.. but these are not thinking people, these are emotional people, ruled by fear and paranoia. when will it stop? i dont think americans, in particular, have the brains to throw off this kind of manipulation. nope. as a nation we are not the sharpest crayons in the box. but we don't look in a real mirror, we look in that mirror from fairy tales that tells us we're the best, and no one even compares.. but that's the attitude that takes a nation straight into the gutter. when i say 'gutter' i dont' mean depravity and 'losing the sanctity of marriage' because marriage wasn't sacred until the end of the dark ages because people felt guilty about it.. the church wanted nothing to do with it. woudln't even do marriages inside the church for hundreds of years. had to be outside, on the steps. but i digress. no, what i mean by gutter is, political and economic decline. like the kind that every nation goes through sooner or later. ours is overdue. we could wise up, and fix the problems.. but i doubt we will. because we're complacent and greedy. so i'm going to bed now. all pissed off. grr..