drippy head

today i stayed home from la work. if i had it to do over, i probably would have gone to work and been moderatly uncomfortable, rather than spend my pto and stay home and be mildly uncomfortable. isn't it odd how you just feel more sick because you are out of the house? i think that princible holds true with hospitals, and other places of healthcare. with the glaring exception of the unsafe home situation, i'd say just about nowhere is as good for you as home. i guess though if you get all messy and cluttered and your house is full of stuff that's dirty and whatever, then it can be rough to stay there. i think it's qi stagnation of the home. that's what feng shui is about, making sure qi doesn't stagnate in your home, becuase where qi stagnates blood will stagnate, that is to say, crap will accumulate in your house. so perhaps you have a table sitting by your door, if that table is a qi stagnating table things will accumulate on it, you'll never beable to keep it empty. on the other hand, maybe that's not the way it happens, perhaps it's not the table with the qi stagnation but the people who continually pile crap on it. if they're too busy to keep the table clear odds are they have a tiny bit of the liver qi stagnation. i think i use those terms a little too much like everyone knows what i'm talking about. to use some more of them, today i had phlegm accumulating in the upper jiao, a headcold with pressure and pain in the face/head, plus no appetite, so i wonder if i had a little phlegm in the middle jiao too.. from the dripping down and swallowing all freaking night. that was pretty lame. anyhow. i think i'm better now.. i just took the day betting that it would be way easier to recover and clear out if i stayed home... and i seem to have been right....at any rate, my nose is way less plugged, and i coughed up a little chunky goodness. and i get dinner made for me by cat tonight. so i'mhappy. totally. anyhow. i gotta go. i'll write again when i think of somehting..

hmm.. good stuff

did anyone see old school? i know some of you did. actually since the only person who i know reads this is Shannon, and i watched it with her, i know she's seen it. late in that movie one character is told by his new and estranged wife that she wants to get divorced.. his reply is "oh, ok.. good stuff... see ya 'round" or something like that, you'd have to ask shannon for verbatim replay. but the point is the way he said 'good stuff' for stuff that was far from good, and you could see in his eyes that it was hard and sad, and he really couldn't have said what he felt. it's very interesting though. Today i spoke with shannon about her grandfather who is lately on a respirator. this obvious reminder of his aging reminded her of what i called life.. of course it's possible and required to use a less broad and vague term to explain that. but we talked about the similarities between her family and mine when it comes to geriatric issues. i suppose it could be true what they say about the receding midlife crises among 20somethings. they used to happen inthe middle of life.. 40-50s you know.. so then they say the midlife crisis is getting earlier for people. i don't think it's true.. i think they just didn't write about the issues of every other age. people of all ages have crises.. young people have them, old people have them. some people odn't feel like they ever have a crisis. some find crises in almost everything that happens around them. the universe presents us all with events.. whatwe do with them is up to our perception of them, since that's how they enter our consciousness. we percieve them and then process them. that's how we can percieve similar situations and get entirely different life experiences out of them. well.. that's good enough for me. that explains how in five elements we see different constitutions, everyone has a kind of a filter they see the worldthrough, a set of issues that color their perceptions before others do. so so like what do you think about when you have a stressor? some people worry, some cry, some laugh, some get tired.. some get sick, some get angry, some withdraw.. it's all very individual.. so to tie this back to me and shannon this afternoon, it made me think about how i dealt with hearing about my aging grandpa, and how shannon would deal with hers. would she get used to it like i did? or would she do something else with it? make her life somehow different to cope somehow with the aging of her family? i think i didn't get used to it. i just am busy so i don't afford myself time to process it.. but it hasn't made me go to visit, or anything like that. maybe i will one of these days. regardless..i guess it leaves me with one final thought... that character in old school said good stuff when it wasn't good, or at least didn't seem good on the surface.. but you could see how it was ok, better they be divorced.. meh. anyway. i've written something of substance in my blog. there you go.

writing today

it's friday. the day many people do things in the social realm, myself though, tonight will be hanging out at home making the house presentable for tomorrow. it'll be good times. if we ever get up out of the basement. i think we will, shortly. anyway. i have already succeeded in removing the cat barf from all the floors it was on, which was alot. well, not alot, i don't want you to think our house was more disgusting than it deserves, so no more cat barf. i'll be vaccuuming shortly, and the kitchen is great, but i did that on wednesday i think.. laundry done, well, washed and dried. needs folding. and definitely appropriately put-away-ness. should be good. anyhow. i'm sitting in a chair downstairs... watching last night's southpark. it's entertaining. whoop. anyway. i moved to a different chair, and it's cold. i think i should eat something. this blog sucks. oh how it sucks. why don't i have news to share.. or something... no.. i dont'.. although something funny happened at work.. i saw a claim that was for "medicaid HO" which was unfortunately truncated because of lack of space. you got goth-served.. hooha...

layin on the floor

sometimes it's very nice to lay on the floor. sometimes it's not. i prefer laying on our floor mostly to laying on our couch. by couch i mean futon ... it's very painful to spend much time on it. we used to sleep on it. for a few months one summer when i was in college i slept on the floor. it was a little strange to many, but i kind of enjoyed it. it was good for my back i think. but bad for my shoulders. i wonder what kind of bed we should get. i've had soft beds and less soft beds, i've slept on floors for periods of time etc. so i've just about slept on everything i guess.. the ground.. never on stone though, i don't think i'd like that. we're supposed to pick out a bed we want.. i haven't looked at anything though, by looked i mean layed on. i guess it's not good because i can't tell if 'ill really sleep well on it just because it's comfortable when i lay down. i've had good nights' sleeps on the guest beds from cat's mom's house, but i've also had less good night's sleeps there too... i've had the most restful sleep ever on the couch at my parents house. i wonder if they make beds out of that. i could sleep on a big one of those for like 4 hours at a time and that would be all i need. how much time do people sleep really? i don't really think people actually sleep a third of their life away, maybe they do, but i wonder. itseems like some people spend much of their youth not sleeping and even it out by sleeping more in their old age. that seems reasonable. i wonder if they have stress- related health problems later in life.. i don't know i guess. anyhow. good sleep is fundamental, or did i spell that wrong. we'll see later. one thing i do know, peopledon't eat well in this country, i doubt most of them sleep well either. there's a boston market commercial on cable and i don't think we have those in this state anymore.they all went away. the one in wallingford coulnd't even sell the property. the one here in mtown has become a kfc, whatever that stands for these days. on that note. i'm going to sit up. and stop typing.