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I wrote this this morning, but forgot to put it up. so i'll do that now.

last night i went to visit a space i could possibly rent. it was nice. reasonable location, perfect size. but i don't know. i don't havea good feeling about it. so i think i'm not going to go with it, even if i can't find something better by the arbitrary date i've set.


I said i would have a space arranged by friday. that was sunday i think. anyway. i can't make that goal. but it upset me tonight so much that i felt really stressed out.. and now i can't sleep. totally can't sleep. i don't like this.
so i'm down here writing out my thoughts. i have to go with my gut. i don't wantthe space. but what do i want? what would it take to make what i've envisioned happen? i should figure that out exactly, because if i don't know what i'm looking for, how will i know when i've found it?